Can i talk the talk?

Today my dorm parent, Mrs. B, was on duty for the first time in a while. She was tutoring a Korean Student, we'll call him Andy, downstairs. He left for a while to get something from his dorm, and I told Mrs. B that I only had 53 days until I left for Korea. She proceeded to ask me if I had learned anything, and I told her that I had, and then introduced myself to her in Korean. Andy came back into the dorm, and Mrs. B is like, tell that to him! I was SOO nervous. I have no problem saying it to Katherine or Ala, because their friends I've had since last year. Then, after a while, Mrs. B told him to say hello to me first, but he messed everything up because he said hello in the casual, non-polite way. I was saying 안녕하새요. 저는 Elizabeth 이에요. But, its a little bit weird when he was just like, 안녕! Because I'm supposed to speak casual to him because he is the same age as me...but then again, I don't know him, but w/e. I said it, and then I thought that he said it was bad, and that he didn't understand what the hell I was saying. BLUH~ Then after bitching (sorry for the language) about it to Katherine, who said i sounded fine, I found out that he said he couldn't hear me. After all, I was upstairs, and he was downstairs. I was also facing the ceiling when I said it, because I wanted to look everywhere but at him. Well, I don't really care, it doesn't matter. I then gathered all of the Koreans numbers...well, from the people that I sort of knew. Me and Ji-Yun then ended up talking a lot. She's really nice! haha, she told me to call her if someone was mean to me, and she could beat them up. : D It was really nice of her to say that, haha. But, then again, I'm American...so some Korean girls won't be mean to me......right? Whatever, in any case, I'll be a WHOLE lot bigger than them, lol. I really hope that I end up in Seoul so that I can see all the Koreans from my school during breaks and stuff. I can show them how much I improved and stuff. I realized that I really need to get over asking questions. I get SOOO nervous, like I did when I was asked to say something to Andy. I am also nervous about asking teachers questions, whether is a boy, girl, or elephant. I just can't ask any questions. I panic, and think I'm going to sound weird, or mess up on what I say, or stutter, or the question is really stupid, or someone in the class will be really annoyed that I'm asking a question. Why am I like that about it? Don't ask me! Just because I am myself, does not mean that I can explain myself to you : P. The last days of school are really sinking in, I'm starting to realize that I'm not going to be here next year, but at the same time...I think that I will for sure be coming back to my current school next year. Every time I go abroad...which this will only be the second time...I have a feeling the whole time before I get there, that I'm not really going. My parents will say no, The plane ticket wasn't bought, my passport is messed up, my bag will randomly have like...cocaine in it and I'll be arrested until my flight leaves for them only to find out that it was another persons powdered milk that somehow ended up in my bag, the plane will crash, I'll get taken to the hospital because I have a fever when I arrive and then get sent back to America. Then...when i finally get to my destination without any problems...I realize that...I'm actually there. Then I leave...and I think that I just woke up from a long relaxing dream...until I see the presents i got for everyone, and I'm wearing the countries I went to jacket with their flag on it. That's what happens. Its a horrible...agonizing process that really makes me stress out. I mean...for a period of time...I feel like...I might die, you know? Right now...I'm a believer though...partly because of Finals. I'm using Korea as an excuse to procrastinate and think about it all the time. Its horrible, but...the horrible thoughts about dying, and problems coming up everywhere...will be coming soon enough... well see. : P